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Posted on April 13, 2006 @ 5:06 pm
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Life is just so stressful right now. And so confusing.
School is blah. I got my report card yesterday... my grade went down in every class, but that usually happens to me third quarter. But still, I was disappointed. I've been trying to look at colleges, but when I do a search on collegeboard or naviance, it comes up with only like 20 or 30ish colleges. It just seems like I'm not going to have many chocies or options, and that doesn't make me happy. It also looks like most of them are Ivy League or those really prestigous colleges, and I don't think that I'll get into any of them. (btw adrienne- cornell was one of them :) lol) I think, though, that taking a class at Harvard tihs summer will definitely help. And it's gonna be interesting, too- they didn't have the class I wanted to take so instead I'm taking Irish Folklore and Mythology. Not that it will get me any closer to graduating when I actually go into college because it is not related to my major at all, but still. It will definitely be fun.
I FINALLY sent in my essay to FYI, so I'm definitely going. I can't wait- it is going to be absolutely amazing.
but my sociology paper calls... more of an update later
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Posted on March 24, 2006 @ 4:32 pm
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[FiRST PERiOD]
*What is this class? Precalc
*Who is your 1st period teacher? Miss Belec
*Who do you sit by? Chanele, Amanda, Madison, Brian
*Do you like this class? its a pretty good class
*Have you ever been late for this class? yes
[SECOND PERiOD]
*What is this class? Earth Science
*Who is your teacher? Mrs. Altenhof
*Who makes you laugh the hardest in this class? Haha James & Soucy
*What kind of grades do you make in this class? A's
*Who falls alseep in this class? James.
[THiRD PERiOD]
*What is this class? Mixed Chorus
*Who is your teacher? Miss Teot
*Who do you sit by? Sam, Rachael, and Misi
*Is this a fun class? Yeah
*Do you make good grades? haha its CHORUS
[FOURTH PERiOD]
*What is this class? Project Adventure (Junior gym)
*Who is your teacher? Mr. Reynolds
*Do you like this class? Yeah
*Who is your favorite person in this class? Tara
*Are you passing this class? Yes.
[FiFtH PERiOD]
*What is this class? Sociology
*Who is your teacher? Mr. McCaffrey
*Who makes you laugh the most in this class? oh goodness, everyone.
*Who do you sit by? Emily & Chris
*Is this a fun class? YES
*What is your grade in this class? A
[SiXTH PERiOD]
*What is this class? US History II
*Who is your teacher? Miss Giorgi
*Who do you sit by? Jackie, Ryan, Julie
*Do you like this class? Sorta
[SEvenTH PERiOD]
*What is this class? American Lit
*Who is your teacher? Miss DeFelice
*Who do you sit by? Chanele, Gina, Kristin
*Do you like this class? yes for the most part
[LUNCH]
*Who do you sit by? E period: Jess S., sometimes Alana, and some other kids. H period: Kristin, Misi, Rebecca, Melanie, Jess M.
*When do you have lunch? 3rd lunch this semester. I really miss 1st lunch last semester but 3rd lunch makes the day go by faster
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Posted on March 21, 2006 @ 9:02 pm
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this song, and its not even a sad song, is making me feel really sadddd!! errr its kinda annoying cuz i dont want to be sad even though i am.
cuz guys suck.
buttttt in other news... gym class was incredibly hilarious today!
haha tying knots is so much fun, especially when the guys dont get it, only the girls do. this means we'll be rock climbing soon! yayyy im excited
my birthday was sunday! thank you everyone who wished me happy birthday or got me a present! rachael and misi, theres still gonna be a smackdown, though. im gonna KILL you for making everyone sing to me. i almost floated away cuz i got SEVENTEEN balloons, and they weren't the wimpy latex kind, either- they were the mylar ones! aha it was hilarious. BUT I'M SEVENTEEN!! It still feels really old... next year ill be 18! crazy times a billion.
i don't feel like updating anymore though so i'm gonna stop haha bye
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Posted on March 21, 2006 @ 4:39 pm
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no one tagged me but i'm doing this anyway...
Ten Things
-List ten things you want to say to people but you know you never will.
-Don't say who they are, use people only once.
-Tag at least 3 other people who you want to do this.
1. i miss you sooo much and i want to talk to you again, but i cant, cuz i know that it would just hurt me even more, and i know that youre not good for me.
2. its so hard to listen to you when you talk about how he treats you, because i dont think you realize that you deserve so much better, and i dont know how to get that into your head.
3. you make me SOOO angry. you dont even know. and i dont know how to change it.
4. youll never understand, but the way you treat me sometimes just hurts soo much
5. i kinda like you. youre so funny and so nice and youre just all around amazing but i dont know if it would work out.
6. i need more friends like you. youre the ultimate. you may be far from being the most popular kid, but i dont care. you accept me how i am and dont treat me horribly and i jsut feel so comfortable with you, ad like i dont have to hide anything from you.
7. im going to miss you and i dont want you to leave. im worried for you- and for him, too. its going to be so hard to say goodbye.
9. you've been my best friend for forever, since before i even knew what a best friend was. even though we've changed so much and lead wayyy different lives, things between us havent changed, and we've never even had a single fight. ive told you things ive never told anyone else, and i just wanted to let you know how grateful i am for you. good luck!
10. i dont understand you at all, and i dont think i ever will, but i still love you, even after all of the things youve done
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Posted on March 03, 2006 @ 5:21 pm
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Posted on February 25, 2006 @ 4:32 pm
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| You Have a Melancholic Temperament |
Introspective and reflective, you think about everything and anything.
You are a soft-hearted daydreamer. You long for your ideal life.
You love silence and solitude. Everyday life is usually too chaotic for you.
Given enough time alone, it's easy for you to find inner peace.
You tend to be spiritual, having found your own meaning of life.
Wise and patient, you can help people through difficult times.
At your worst, you brood and sulk. Your negative thoughts can trap you.
You are reserved and withdrawn. This makes it hard to connect to others.
You tend to over think small things, making decisions difficult. |
sooo true...
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Posted on February 16, 2006 @ 7:10 pm
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Posted on January 23, 2006 @ 7:08 pm
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my i just say that all this stress is killing me. i really cant handle it.
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Posted on January 17, 2006 @ 10:38 pm
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WHAT WOULD YOU DO IF:
» I committed suicide:
» I said I liked you:
» I kissed you:
» I lived next door to you:
» I started smoking:
» I stole something:
» I was hospitalized:
» I ran away from home:
» I got into a fight and you were there:
WHAT DO YOU THINK ABOUT MY:
» Personality:
» Eyes:
» Face:
» Hair:
» Clothes:
» Mannerisms:
[1] Who are you?
[2] Are we friends?
[3] When and how did we meet?
[4] How have I affected you?
[5] What do you think of me?
[6] What's the fondest memory you have of me?
[7] How long do you think we will be friends or enemies?
[8] Do you love me?
[9] Have I ever hurt you?
[10] Would you hug me?
[11] Would you kiss me?
[12] Would you fuck me?
[13] Are we close?
[14] Emotionally, what stands out?
[15] Do you wish I was cooler?
[16] On a scale of 1-10, how nice am I?
[17] Give me a nickname and explain why you picked it.
[18] Am I loveable?
[19] How long have you known me?
[20] Describe me in one word.
[21] What was your first impression?
[22] Do you still think that way about me now?
[23] What do you think my weakness is?
[24] Do you think I'll get married?
[25] What about me makes you happy?
[26] What about me makes you sad?
[27] What reminds you of me?
[28] What's something you would change about me?
[29] How well do you know me?
[30] Ever wanted to tell me something but couldn't?
[31] Do you think I would kill someone?
[32] Have you ever had a dream about me? And if so what kind?
[33] Are you going to put this on your journal and see what I say about you?
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Posted on January 05, 2006 @ 10:03 pm
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Oh, and I love this:
(My recent school schedule):
Dec. 23-Jan. 2 vacation
Jan. 3 snowday
(3-day school week)
normal school week
4-day weekend!!
(3-day school week)
beat that awesomeness
Bye.
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Posted on January 05, 2006 @ 9:40 pm
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I miss you. I miss you I miss you I miss you I miss you I miss you. And I miss how
you make me feel. And if you hadn't gone and done that I wouldn't be
missing you right now... Why'd you have to do that? Especially in a
situation like that. If you're not gonna keep talking to me, don't talk
to me at all. It makes my life so much easier. And speaking of talking.
I want to talk to you. Cuz right now I feel like you're the only one
who I can and want to talk to. This is all just fucking with my head...
God. I hate it.
But in other news...
I got a digital camera for Christmas!! It's exciting. And once I get
unlazy I'm gonna put all my pictures up online. Just for you to see,
cuz you know you want to see them lol.
I hate school. Yes I do. But I love having study with Kristin. "I love
coke!". (not the drink... haha it was hilarious she drew a pic of me
with needles in my arm cuz i lost the game we were playing.). I have a
whole section of my wallet full of Kristin's drawings of me from during
study. Ickk next semester I have no studies cuz I have to take Project
Adventure... Yay for rock wall climbing!! Not. haha at least I didn't
have it first semester... I won't have to go out in the snow :D
But I have to do my homework so yeah...
Bye.
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Posted on December 13, 2005 @ 11:09 pm
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i just feel like... god, im gonna sound like im whining... but oh well im gonna say it anyway.
i feel like to my friends, im just a friend. not one of those "lets
call her" or one of those top priority, important friends. i just feel
like im low on people's list of important friends. like, gosh, i really
sound completely self-centered and whiny right now. well, i just feel
like im not that important to anyone right now.
i donno, maybe im just being stupid, but thats honestly how i feel.
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Posted on December 01, 2005 @ 3:30 pm
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Christmas is coming. You don't know how happy that makes me.
I've been so... I don't know, not motivated lately.
And it kind of worries me. I need something that's going to give me a
reason to get going, and get motivated, but I just am not seeing it
yet. It's probably there, right under my nose, but I'm just too blind
to see it. If I wasn't so stressed out, maybe that would help.
I'm going to NY on Saturday!! It's going to be
sooo much fun. Except for the fact that I have to get up at four in the
morning. I don't know how I'm going to manage, but I will.
There's only one big thing on my to-do list, and
hopefully it'll happen next weekend. Can you guess what it is? Go
ahead, guess.
Here it is:
I HAVE TO SEE EVERYONE FROM FYI. SOON. I miss everyone too much to wait a whole lot longer.
I think that once that happens, everything will be good for awhile. Life will be good.
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Posted on December 01, 2005 @ 2:57 pm
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Christmas is coming. You don't know how happy that makes me.
I've been so... I don't know, not motivated lately.
And it kind of worries me. I need something that's going to give me a
reason to get going, and get motivated, but I just am not seeing it
yet. It's probably there, right under my nose, but I'm just too blind
to see it. If I wasn't so stressed out, maybe that would help.
I'm going to NY on Saturday!! It's going to be
sooo much fun. Except for the fact that I have to get up at four in the
morning. I don't know how I'm going to manage, but I will.
There's only one big thing on my to-do list, and
hopefully it'll happen next weekend. Can you guess what it is? Go
ahead, guess.
Here it is:
I HAVE TO SEE EVERYONE FROM FYI. SOON. I miss everyone too much to wait a whole lot longer.
I think that once that happens, everything will be good for awhile. Life will be good.
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Posted on November 13, 2005 @ 10:15 pm
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OH. MY. GOD. how do I even begin to explain? I don't
think I can. For you to understand, you would have had to have
experienced this weekend with me- nothing compares. Let me just say, I
know that I am loved. I know that there will always be people there
with me when I'm having a hard time, and they won't be judging me, or
ignoring me, they'll be listening. and understanding. And caring. You
don't know what it feels like to know that. And to know that you have
family everywhere, because that's what all of you FYIers are: my
family. I love you all.
And I love chat rooms with everyone. And praying
with each other online. And having a journal/book to send around to
everyone so that we can keep in touch. I am just SOO happy right now,
you don't even know. And I miss everyone so much.
I LOVE YOU GUYS
♥♥
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Posted on November 07, 2005 @ 8:13 pm
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Today was a good day.
I blew up balloons during study. Quite fun when
you're using a helium tank. After school we had Best Buddies, then
Rachael and I walked to my house cuz we don't have rides on Mondays,
and her house is too far to walk to.
We spent most of our time on the computer cuz we
were being wicked lazy, but we did go to Honey Farms & get food.
Junk food, obviously. Then Rachael had to leave and I had nothing to do
so I posted stuff on people's myspaces and changed mine.
And now Amy's telling me to take pictures of
pictures w/my phone, since I don't have a scanner. Maybe I'll try it.
[later] I tried it, and it didn't work. So I went
and had Charlotte let me use her scanner. And I scanned the cutest
picture ever, it's of me when I was 3:
If you are my friend on myspace, go comment on it cuz it's my new main pic.
I was definitely one of the cutest 3 yr olds out
there. And I still have that stuffed duck, whose name is Ducky btw.
He's a bit more worn out, less fluffy, and less white, and he's got an
ace bandage on his neck because my old dock Max decided that a stuffed
duck's neck might be pretty tasty. The neck is still there, but now
it's just lots skinnier and weaker. And the eyes are starting to fall
out, but I won't let them haha. Ducky was my security duck instead of
security blanket haha. I would not go anywhere without him and wouldn't
sleep without him, either, and one time when we were on vacation I
accidentally left him in a grocery store, so my mom and dad had to go
back to the store in the middle of the night to get it, and luckily the
manager was still there to open the doors for them, otherwise I would
not be sleeping that night and they would've had lots of fun dealing
with me. Not.
I really should not be eating chocolate donuts right
now. I'm going to kill Rachael for leaving them here. But they're tasty.
Homework calls... night!
♥♥
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Posted on November 06, 2005 @ 11:07 pm
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I've gotten through and over so much lately, but even now, so many
obstacles are being placed in my path. I'm just trying to not
get overwhelmed and sink under. It's great, though, the things I've realized that I've got that
I didn't even know I was missing.
My church & FYI friends have been sooo helpful lately. (And
don't worry all of you non-church friends- you help too). They just
have like this extra piece of them that makes them somewhat more
accepting and understanding... and I love you all for it. For the
longest time, church was not as big a part of my life as it used to be,
and you all helped me to see that it needed to be again, even if you
didn't realize that you were doing that. THANKS :]
So tonight I decided to print out all of my poems so that I could
have them somewhere other than my computer... It took over an hour. It
was worth it though, even though it took so much freaking paper! You should see it all.
Tomorrow's gonna be a good day. B block = an hour
and a half of study + break. You can not beat that. Be sure of it.
Rachael, I'm probably gonna use this word all the
time now, and you will be the only one who will understand it haha.
"lovplete". YAY
Guys, the FYI reunion is next week!! None of you can
know how excited I am except for all you cool FYIers, especially
Adrienne, cuz she's like the super-most excited person out of all of
us. It's contagious.
I expect you all to be going to the ABRHS Cabaret
next year, cuz it's awesome, and Beth is always in it, and she's
awesome, so it's just complete awesomeness.
Who likes my new layout? I do, obviously. I love it.
And my icon, too, cuz it's a spacemonkey with a banana. It's incredibly
random, and that's why it's so cool. And I need to stop rambling and
stay on one subject for more than a minute. That's a bit hard for me to
do, though.
( three [it's a survey thing] )
♥♥
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